事情，她异常的坚持，让继父和母亲也无从阻止，我们只背着简单的行囊，就踏上了我们人生中的第一次旅行，也是唯一一次。
我们到底走了几个地方，有怎样的见闻，至今我依然记得清楚，甚至是如烟的一颦一笑，如烟的叮嘱，如烟的警告，我都一一记在心底，我们一共走了十天，游油走走，走走停停，其实也没有走的太远，可是这段旅程却让我毕生都难以忘怀的。````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````
我始终认为，我们的感情从我们认识那一天起，就开始萌生了，而我们单独在一起的这十天，才是我们感情升华的重要时期。那个年代我们没有什么海誓山盟，也没有海枯石烂，有的只是自然而然，我们之间没有表白，没有承诺，有的只是笃信。
我曾经以为，这就是我们的天长地久，我也相信我们的感情会亘古不变，然而有些变故，让我第一次失了阵脚。
高二那年，我的亲生父亲的家人找到了我，这个时候，我才知道，为什么母亲不许让我忘记亲生父亲，原来他们的结合在当年并没有得到家人的支持，门不当户不对的爱情，让他们吃尽了苦头，父亲的早逝，也让母亲彻底失去了支撑。
这么多年后，父亲的家人突然地造访，不得不让母亲心慌，那个人我应该叫爷爷，不知道他是因为良心发现，还是苦于后继无人的烦恼，他要将我带走培养，也是这个时候，我才知道原来我的爷爷是个了不起的人物天眼。
我想拒绝，可是母亲的眼泪，继父的叹息，还有如烟的微笑，我犹豫了，为了那我再没有几乎尽孝的父亲，我妥协了，我对如烟说，离开只是为了更好的重聚，我会成功的回来见她的，如烟只是笑，并没有说什么，可是我知道，她一样舍不得我。
我这一走就是五年，而迎接我归来的礼物，却是如烟的婚礼，那是我人生中最惨痛的打击。``````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````
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我很想问为什么，为什么如烟要放弃我，为什么继父和母亲都劝我劝我忘了如烟，为什么我在如烟的脸上看不到新婚的喜悦，而那个叫做年镇海的男人，是我今生唯一嫉妒的人，而他对如烟的好，我都看在眼里，这也是让我默默离开的更重要的原因，我想要把自己对如烟的爱，埋在心底，带进坟墓。
可是让我更加想不到的是，三年间，母亲和继父相继去世，已经让我悲痛不已，而让我几近奔溃的是，如烟居然也花样的年华香消玉殒，而我在相当短的时间就真的成了孤家寡人。
我无法接受这一切，当我见到了那个如烟用生命换来的小生命，我的心被抓的紧紧的，年镇海说，如烟给孩子起名叫“年”，没有人知道我是用多么大的意志力才压制住心底的疑问。
曾经，我和如烟开玩笑说，我们今后的孩子，一定要叫“年”，就叫柳年，音同“流年”，以证明我们如水般流逝的光阴和年华，可是为什么，如烟要把我们曾经的约定，以这样的形式诠释，为什么她要用这样的方式，扣住我们的承诺。
我再一次逃避了，一逃避又是几年。可是那孩子的样子，让我怎么也忘不掉，我甚至觉得那就是我和如烟的孩子，是我和如烟生命的延续。
我再次回到如烟的家，才感觉到这个孩子会给我荒诞的人生，带来了新的希望，我打定主意，为了这个孩子，我可以付出一切，我不知道年镇海是怎么想的，我强势的入侵他的家，霸占他的女儿，可是我却无暇顾及他的心情，我只想再一次感受来自如烟的温暖。````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````
我做了年年的干爸，每次听她称呼我，我就自动隐去“干”字，就当是她的爸爸，看着她一天天长大，一天天便漂亮，越来越像我的如烟，我的心总是酸涩的很，看着年年依赖着窦骁那个小子，我就总是担心，萌生太早的爱情，主动波折重重，我不想年年受到伤害，我要把她捧在手心，看着她快乐的成长，可是我却没有做到，我居然听信了谗言，恨上了可能害了如烟的年镇海，再无法面对年年，我却没有料到，我的放任，让年年吃尽了苦头。
后来经过了很多波折，我还是知道了真相，我以为我会暴跳如雷，可是我竟然没有，我只恨自己草率，我心疼的只是那个叫做如烟的傻女人，怎么会委屈自己到那个地步。
后来，我想我的人生并不失败，我爱的女人到死爱的、想的、为的都是我，就算她的孩子不是我的血脉，却是我亲手带大，我终生未娶，不是我的迁就，而是我坚定专一的爱，我认定，来生我和如烟一定会再续前缘，我们今生没有完成的路程，来世可以继续，我余下的人生，除了含孙弄怡，就只剩下等，我在等，静静的等，等到再见到如烟，我的爱非常秘书最新章节。
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